Much Better Now!

I've really loved writing in my blog since I started it, but I couldn't seem to find a blog template that really made me happy. Nothing that I found made me feel like myself. I know it's just a website, but it's kinda hard to express yourself when you look at your finished product and don't really feel like it does a good job of expressing who you are.

I was doing some writing last night before bed in my gratitude journal, which I do every night, and I was suddenly struck by the impulse to ask the Big U for a template for my blog that would make me feel more aligned with my purpose. I'd browsed a bunch of templates online before, but I hadn't actually ASKED for help. So, I flipped to my "Intentions" section and wrote these words: I want a blog template that I feel expresses my personality in as great a way as this Gratitude and Intention Journal does. Please help me make this easy to do.

I should meantion that my Gratitude journal is a 3 subject notebook with a sturdy plastic green cover (Green is one of my favorite colors!). This notebook is home to my Gratitude Journal, my Intention/Manifestation Journal, and my Dream Journal. I have all kinds of little drawings and stickers on the front and tiny post-it notes marking pages and entries.

I woke up 45 minutes early this morning, so from 5:15 am till 5:45 am, I just layed in bed and did my gratitude meditation. Then I remembered my intention to find a new template and my request for help. It made me smile to think of finding what I wanted, even though I didn't have a picture of it in my head. I figured God knows what I'm like and can manage to send me something that screams "EL!" without me giving specific instructions.

At 5:45, I got up and shut off my 6am alarm before it went off and headed out to turn on my coffee. I sat down at the table in front of my laptop and started browsing light heartedly while I waited for my brew.

It didn't even take me 10 minutes to find this template, and when I did, I almost yelled out loud. LOL I've looked here n there for months. Some of my regulars can attest to how many times I've changed the look and feel of this blog. This is the one though. It even LOOKS like my Journal. I don't think there's another background and set up in the world that is more "Me" than this one. I'm SO THRILLED!

I hope yall like my new digs! I feel SO much better about it now. I love the feeling of being aligned with your purpose.

Happy Thursday!

El

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Confronting My Ego Monster

I had to confront my ego today. Someone said some not so very nice things about my belief in LOA. It was on someone else's blog and I felt an instant urge to run straight there and defend myself and my beliefs. I read and reread what this guy said and got more and more indignant and plain ol' PISSED OFF by the second.

Here's what I know:

#1. This feeling I was feeling has started every single war that has ever been started.
#2. It in no way stops me from believing the way I do.
#3. He can't take my peace away from me. I can only be indignant and GIVE it to him.

It took me about 5 minutes to calm down. 5 minutes and an angry venting post on a forum of my LOA friends. By the time I'd made it to the bottom of the post I was typing, I was calm and laughing at how badly I'd flown the sanity-coop.

As humans, we REALLY want to be right. I was ready to go flip out on some guy just to try to prove to him that I was right. In truth, he can think that I'm a certifiable nut case and it doesn't change anything. Not one single thing in my reality can change because of what someone else thinks about me unless I invite and allow it to.

Here's part of my vent:

*I don't need anyone to validate me... or validate the way I believe the Universe works. I don't need anyone to tell me that LOA works because I see it for myself. I also don't need to convince anyone that LOA works. If they can't see it, then it's not their time to see it. I can't force them to be conscious enough to accept their own hand in what their lives have become.*

It's not my job to convince anyone or "save" anyone. Only you can save yourself. If someone wants to live the life of a victim, they can't be empowered by force. One thing I do find amusingly ironic.... I spend my time mastering my thoughts. I am consciously directing my thought patterns toward good feeling thoughts and ideas. I don't worry uncontrollably because I know that my thoughts are directing my life, and I watch things march right into my life after I focus my thoughts on them. Somehow, skeptics say I've lost my mind.... when in truth, I not only possess a strong mind, but I have very precise control over it. Irony amuses me :)

I hope you're creating the life of your dreams!
El